Heisui’s Thoughts: I wonder…
“I’m not really a drama addict anymore, more like an occasional drama watcher now.” Someone wrote to me. Multiple Someones wrote this to me. “It’s more of a habit now. Not a love.”
“Yeah, I know what you mean.” I said. I gave my usual spiel: the drama slump, my dismal watching track record this year, and my waning interest in the currently airing shows. I talked about it as though it were a cycle that would soon end—I would find that next addicting drama. I would defeat my drama slump once and for all; victory is the only way out, I thought. I could not afford to leave the slump any other way. But…
All in all, I would also say:
I wonder if I watch and write about dramas because of inertia.
I wonder if I will want to watch dramas when I am an 80-year old lady.
I wonder if, in my dying days, I will tell my family my big secret: *hoarsely whispers* “My….secret identity is Heisui…I…have a drama blog….tell my readers goodbye for meeee…”
I wonder if I will ever stop blogging.
I wonder what I would do if I were completely drama-less.
I wonder if all my efforts in blogging are futile.
I wonder if I am over-thinking this.
I wonder when “it” will end.