Heisui’s Thoughts: My old cringe-worthy posts
Whenever I think about my posts from the past, especially from the beginning of my blog (first started in 2011!), I cringe a little inside. I used to say really spazzy things like this:
From one of my Asuko March posts, written in 2011. I had second lead syndrome ever since the beginning of time..
“GO TAMAKI!!!!!!! [the second lead that I was hopelessly rooting for] GET THE GIRL!!!! The camera then shows….Aruto!!!! [the main male lead] He’s listening in on their conversation!! OHOHO, now things are getting complicated!!”
Or this, from my first post about BOSS Season 1, written in 2012:
“Osawa Eriko is the kind of woman you look at and say “She’s the MAN!” Even though her team is mismatched and she’s basically there as a figurehead, Osawa is all, WHATEVER, Imma go solve a case anyway! Because she’s a BOSS like that.”
My overexaggerated comments on Gaiji Keisatsu:
“Is this really a jdrama? Is this even possible in the drama world?”
And this ‘hook’ that I wrote for HK-drama Tiger Cubs, also in 2012:
“BROMANCE! HK ACTION SCENES! LOVE TRIANGLES BETWEEN BEST FRIENDS! GIRL POWER! TEAMWORK! TIGER CUBS HAS EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!”
Part of what spurred me to write this post was, admittedly, that horrible line that I wrote about Gaiji Keisatsu, “Is this even possible in the drama world?”. BLEGHHH!! WHY DID I WRITE THAT? It made me instantly want to edit out that line, HAH. (And I ended up setting it to private until I can write a new review for it someday..) Ah yes, a lot has changed since 2011. Now that I am in 2014, when I look back on my old posts from a couple years ago, or even from one year ago, I wonder just what was I thinking writing all of this? =_= I think about how much I have changed since 2011, how much my writing style and drama preferences differ from my original ones, and how my blog has sort of ‘evolved’ in a sense into what it is now…and to put it simply, I am not who I was in 2011. Sometimes it bothers me when I read my old posts because of how much they fall short from my current writing standards. A part of me sometimes wants to just set all of my old posts to private and be done with it. But here’s the thing..not all of my ‘bad’ posts were ones that I would want to erase from my blog forever. Seriously, just rereading my first review for The Legend of Zhen Huan (first started writing about it in 2012) makes me cringe, and that’s not even a super early post of mine, heh! But there’s no way I would want to erase that review or hide it as ‘private’; the drama is still very important to me and is something I want represented on my blog.
No matter how much I dislike my old posts, I still put a lot of time and effort into them. Even though they were rough, brief, and probably need tons of improvements, they still contain a lot of my initial thoughts of dramas that I was watching for the first time. The first time you watch a drama is very important because it is an experience unlike any other rewatch will give you. You are without any foreknowledge, without preconceptions about the characters and the stories (I’m not referring to remakes or dramas based on novels, I guess..). You are always changing your views on the story and your perceptions of the characters. These first impressions of the ‘first watch’ are really important to me because I can never completely re-experience them again, even during a rewatch. I guess you could say that episodic reviews are kind of capturing the moment, or capturing my first thoughts on what I just saw. In this sense, there is something that I could never recapture in my reviews even if I rewrote them or edited them.
..But at the same time, a part of me REALLY WANTS to go back and fix up my old posts, reformat them, reorganize all my images, etc. I don’t want to let my old sucky posts remain any longer! But this alternative to deleting or setting my posts as private means…EDITING THEM ALL!!!!!! NOOOOOOOO!!!!!!! *runs away screaming* The thought of editing hundreds of posts (425 posts as of now) and images (I don’t even want to know the exact number) is really daunting. I wanted to make it my summer mission to somehow update all of my old posts and all, but I feel like it is an even bigger task than I thought it would be at first. To reemphasize what I said in my drama blogging tips, ORGANIZE YOUR STUFF! Don’t let it haunt you like it is haunting me now!! 😛
Anyways, I have no idea how or if I will manage to successfully update my old posts this summer. I also have yet to make a strategy to accomplish this. I will keep you posted on it if I manage to make progress. =_=