Heisui’s Thoughts: Wait…just why am I drama-blogging again?
Just recently today, I attempted writing about my final thoughts on the k-drama Cruel City…but failed. I thought hey, I’ll sleep on it and then try writing again tomorrow. But then I got to thinking more and more about other stuff. And the thought randomly crossed my mind…
“Wait..why am I even drama-blogging again?”
I’ve thought about this before. I’ve touched upon this topic in my very first “Heisui’s Thoughts” post. But here it is, again. Yay. Now I’m in the deep and thoughtful mood. I think if you are a drama-blogger or a drama fan, a question similar to this will inevitably pop up someday. “Why am I watching all these dramas? Why do I HAVE to write about all the dramas I’m watching? Why do I HAVE to read about the dramas I’m watching? Why, when real life is so pressing and stressful, do I end up coming back to these dramas..to this blog?” Some of my fellow bloggers–namely Jandoe from Blogphilic and Isabellealyssa from Musings of a self-professed k-drama addict have also asked this question. And they for sure have gone into this issue more in depth than I will. O_O I’ve gone through that “why am I blogging?” issue before but somehow…I don’t think I’ve contemplated about it enough.
^Just to lighten up the mood a bit. 😛 If you’ve seen Saikou no Rikon, you’ll remember when this happened.
So tonight that thought came into my head again. I thought about it again. I went through all of the reasons that I’ve listed before. Stress relief. Blogging is a method of stress relief, you better believe it. My blog is almost like a secret space where I can just let loose and not think about what’s going on in real life. Just going onto my blog, reading other people’s blogs and talking with people through comments makes me feel more relaxed. It makes me happy. But even though it makes me happy, there are times when I will just stop and think, “What’s the point of this?” I guess this can also go for other parts of life too…it’s that feeling when you’re in the middle of doing something and you’re suddenly all to aware of the moment and you just pause…and the thought flashes through your mind “What’s the point?”.
Well here’s another reason: the drama blogging community. I’ve talked to people from France, Malaysia, Singapore, the UK, Australia..more places than I can remember. It is really amazing now that I really think about it. Even though we are all so far away, all so spread out across the globe…even though the internet can feel so impersonal and a spazzy blog can conveniently hide all the crap that I’m troubled about……..somehow, I feel closer to people through blogging. Sometimes people will go off the chart for a while. Maybe they return or maybe they leave a site for good. But during the time I get to know them, I feel close to them. I don’t know what they look like..I don’t know who exactly they are or what real-life situations they are going through at the moment…but something is unifying me and them. (DRAMAS! Ok this is getting really cheesy now..)
It makes me think of one of my favorite Japanese words, “Kizuna”. The bond between humans…the emotional ties between people. Can we, through our blogs experience “kizuna”? I say yes. I don’t know if it’s just me but I have felt the bond between people through drama blogging. (or just blogging in general) There have been so many times when I start talking with someone through the comments and I end up going “WOW you’re a lot like me! We’re really similar!” It’s such a great feeling to know that there are people out there who are like me. Even if they are on the other side of the world, it’s really a great comfort.
^no post is complete without an obligatory screencap from the Legend of Zhen Huan
I don’t think I can ever give a concrete answer to the question that I brought up at the beginning of this post…why am I drama blogging? I think the reasons will always be continually changing through time. It is easy to say in our blog description in the “About” page, “I’m here to rant and flail about mah dramas HEHEHE” but really…….it’s more than that. It’s so much more than that. It’s not just a place to spazz. It’s not just that. It’s so much more.