Bu Bu Jing Xin: Ep 18
I actually rewatched this entire episode to recap it, and not one moment felt dull. That’s how good BBJX is. You just want to rewatch it over and over.
We leave off with Ruo Xi asking 4th if he’s willing to marry her. 4th DOESN’T EVEN FLINCH, and just looks at her with this gentle look in his eyes.
4th: “Right now, I’m not willing to.”
Ruo Xi: “If I have to marry Crown Prince, I’d rather die.”
4th: “That won’t do either. Don’t forget, I saved your life. Without my permission, you’re not allowed to die.”
Omg, can 4th be any cooler?
4th: “You can only wait.”
Ruo Xi: “Wait?”
*4th puts the hairpin back in Ruo Xi’s hair* “Since you’re already wearing my hairpin and you said you want to marry me, what do you think you have to wait for?”
Yes, he apparently he can. It gets better.
“You’ve just recovered. You should rest more and recuperate. You look really pale right now, I don’t want to marry an ugly woman.”
And then 4th walks away. OMG.
Ruo Xi returns back home to find 8th standing in the courtyard.
“I couldn’t possibly watch you marry this kind of person. Even if you don’t marry me, I don’t want you to suffer with him.”
Ruo Xi remains distant with 8th. *cue the sad music* She indirectly makes jabs at him by talking about how none of them can control their own destiny, make their own decisions, etc. etc. Which…I don’t really understand, I mean SHE’S the one who walked out on the relationship, not him. 8th still wanted to be with her, but how could he possibly give up THE THRONE? I’m actually on 8th’s side because we found out later that Ruo Xi just wanted him to give up the throne to show his love for her….
8th: “You have someone else in your heart, don’t you?”
Ruo Xi: “Don’t tell me that you want to control my heart as well?”
8th: “I hope it’s not 4th brother. Otherwise you’ll only suffer…”
Haha, this whole conversation is so ironic, because for one, YES 8th wanted Ruo Xi’s heart to belong to him. And YES Ruo Xi is gonna fall in love with 4th. And lastly, 4th is gonna end up being Emperor.
After his depressing conversation with Ruo Xi, 8th goes to visit his dying mother. They have the saddest conversation ever…
Mom: “Who doesn’t look at birth status?…If I had come from a good family, your path wouldn’t have to be so rocky.”
8th: “…in your eyes, how many are my accomplishments?”
Mom: “..you definitely haven’t lost to your other brothers…”
8th: “What is bestowed by others cannot be compared to what one earns by his own means. If I didn’t have the strength, would I dare to rise to the challenge…These many years, everything I’ve done was all to enable us to gain a sense of self respect and not let others belittle us.”
Mom says she knows 8th will succeed (again, really bittersweet because we the viewers know the outcome) and that she’ll help him.
8th: “No matter how lowly our births, we’ll surely attain wealth and rank in our future.”
8th leaves, and as his mom looks at him walking away, she says
“The only way I can help is to not drag you down.”
She refuses to take her medicine, in order to quicken her death. What gets me is that the servants have no choice but to obey her. Omg. 8th’s mom didn’t get a very large role, but she nailed this scene. It was so sad because she knowingly talked to her son for the last time of her life. This is where I really feel for 8th, because he’s trying to hard to defy his lowly birth status, especially for the sake of his mother. And now his mom has sacrificed herself for his sake.
8th’s mom passes away. Ruo Xi tries to write a letter to 8th, but can’t think of what to say. She goes over to their quarters. She simply bows three times near the gate, in the direction of their house. The emperor passes by, and only pauses for a moment outside the house.
“So this is the Emperor’s love, but a mere moment’s worth.”
Time for 14th to try and talk some sense into Ruo Xi!
“One can call you heartless, but you actually bowed your head before Liang Concubine’s place. One can call you compassionate, but…even completely unrelated people can say consoling words [to 8th bro]. But you remain indifferent like you don’t even know. You didn’t even offer basic words asking how he is. Ruo Xi, do you really not care at all about 8th brother?…Do you know how disappointed 8th brother is?
Ruo Xi: “14th prince, do you know what longing feels like? It’s like a needle in your heart. How the heart is wounded, how the heart hurts, you don’t understand. Since two people can no longer be together, then why hinder them by doing things that make it so hard to let go, to let their heart continue to hurt? Now the more it hurts, the easier it is for him to forget. I would rather he feel hurt now, then forget me completely. From now on, he won’t think of me anymore.
14th: “A needle in the heart? What seemed like heartlessness is actually heartfelt concern. If you’re willing to wait, if it’s still possible…”
Ruo Xi: “Wait? There’s no turning back anymore. Moreover, will His Majesty let me wait forever?”
14th: “Then can you forget 8th bro?”
Ruo Xi: “I’ve already forgotten.”
14th gives in, and gives Ruo Xi advice on what to do in the future.
4th bro and Ruo Xi talk in the snow, as they look at tree blossoms. 4th asks Ruo Xi what’s wrong, and Ruo Xi says that it’s getting harder and harder to survive in the palace. 4th says that not everyone wants to hear the truth. Ruo Xi replies that if he wants her to put on an act, she can, but she thinks 4th prince would rather hear the truth, even if it hurts. I love how candid they are!
“Ruo Xi, do you not understand your own heart? Too many fears and too many concerns. Everyday you tried to balance yourself, and you’re too careful.”
Ruo Xi flicks her forehead, and tells her to go inside to stay warm. Ruo Xi returns home and wonders if 4th understands her own heart. She decides she needs to understand herself better, and takes off her precious bracelet.
Ruo Xi entrusts 14th with her bracelet, asking him to return it to 8th bro for her. 13th and 4th bro walk up, so 14th holds up the bracelet, and says that it’d be impolite for him to decline it. LOL 14th is implying that it’s a gift for himself. I love 14th’s guts. As if on cue, 13th leaves 4th to talk with Ruo Xi alone. Ruo Xi says that it’s not what 4th thinks it is. He says he doesn’t care what she was doing; he just doesn’t want her to fight with 14th again.
^included this simply because of how pretty it is!! Nothing significant really happened in this scene…love the bokeh from the light coming through teh door.
^bottom right pic: I GOT A PIC OF 4TH’S SMIRK!!!!!!!!!
4th: “From today onwards, never lie to me. Because I’m the same as you. I’d rather hear the ugly truth than have you lie to deceive me.”
Ruo Xi: “Then can you promise never to lie to me?”
4th points out how careful Ruo Xi is, always making sure never to let anyone get the advantage over her.
4th: “I promise you.”
Ruo Xi: “Why?”
4th: “No particular reason. I ought to.” *SWOON*
Ruo Xi: “What if there are some thing I’m not willing to talk about. Then what?”
4th: “You can directly tell me you don’t want to talk about it. But never lie to deceive me.”
Um, I really love 4th. I love how 4th and Ruo Xi can speak on equal terms with each other. Ruo Xi can be sure that 4th will be honest with her, and she can be bold enough to make her own requests. Ruo Xi says that she has something to ask him. *cue epic suspenseful music*
She writes the word “throne” on his hand, and asks if he wants it or not.
I really enjoyed the ending of the episode, because it actually had some suspense. Usually the BBJX endings are rather abrupt, like they just randomly decided to cut off the episode there.
This episode was full of 4th/Ruo Xi scenes, in which 4th demonstrates his understanding of Ruo Xi’s heart. Ruo Xi herself is now wondering if she doesn’t know herself as well as she thought she did.
And of course, I love how direct 4th is with Ruo Xi. 8th bro is always wondering what’s on Ruo Xi’s mind…but 4th reads her so well that he deducts what’s on her mind. And if Ruo Xi doesn’t want to tell him, he won’t force her. I love. 4th.